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8/21/05

A Day Not to be Forgotten




Rarely, I react like many other people when facing tragedy. I was concern on that fated day because I knew that he was not the same man I knew, but the other in which he merged, the one who made wonder about my motherhood. His mind was gone and his eyes look different when I stared at them. He was so dramatic in his behavior that I just sat there, observing him and the whole scene like a fiction movie. I did not even bat and eyelash when he forcibly injured himself with the knife, zigzagging it into his flesh, like those samurais did as the committed Harakiri although the position of his knife was not right (luckily enough.)
I was submerged into a void never experienced before, not reacting normally like a mother protecting her cub but instead applauding him for having the courage to perform such an act. I saw the pain in his face but still did not react, whereas, Sandy, the friend who was also there with us, screamed at him while I softly asked her to call the police, that arrived faster than flies over honey. The police misunderstood my son's mental state and contradicting his reality they shot him fearing for their safety when they saw the knife that he was still holding in his hand. The ambulance arrived and took him away from me, leaving me alone, ignoring if he was alive or dead. I was absolutely absorbed into nothingness; but then, after a while, I felt an overwhelming fear...

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The life of a unique and incredible woman whose fate was to be followed by drama, comedy and tragedy. She wandered under a lucky star, which protected her at all times, thus, overcoming the odds that forced her to swim against the high tides; but surprisingly, arriving onto safer and better shores by miracle or by her own strength. Character: Gentle as and orchid but solid as an oak tree. Distracted, but attentive to the best and worth things of life. Indifferent to the time that passes by, but always aware of the beauty around her. Understands and accepts pain, physical or mental, which she believes is absolutely needed in order to grow wiser and happier. She thinks that Happiness is within our reach and unhappiness is not letting go of things or people that don't belong to us any longer.

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I wrote two books that are being translated from Spanish into English but ready to be published in Spanish: "Abracadabra, Stop the Curse! (1999) and "Beyond the Eclipse" (2208) (Abracadabra! Que Pare la Maldicion! y "Mas Alla del Eclipse")

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